this has been the second most exciting year of my life (nothing can beat 2009), and it's so because it's been full of new things i have learnt, and more than that, things i have relearnt, in sometimes a brand new way, and sometimes in an old manner but it amazes me i forgot my lesson from them from the last time :P. well that's me; actually that's human. i plan not to order and format this post, so here goes. straight from the heart, onto this blog.
1. family is a beautiful gift, a blessing, a responsibility one can happily be ready to meet, any day, in any way.
2. you cannot pull or push fate and predestination. yes, this is part of imaan, the basics of faith...i learnt it back when i started to learn anything at all, but the start, mid and especially the end of 2010 has really taught me this. nothing really is in our hands.
3. self respect is irreplacable, irreparable. i (and you, and every single person of this creation) can only negate the self through drowning in love.
4. there is only one Being worthy of love. and that's Allah. no doubts, no questions, no second thoughts about that. when every one leaves, Allah still is with me. when i give up on myself, Allah doesn't quit on me. He is my Best Friend. He is my Reason. He is all my Reasons. Whenever, and whereever i have forgotten this and acted in opposition to this, infinite praise be to the Being that Allah Is, He has reminded me and pulled me out of the mess, the zulm that i do on myself. the reason why we lose out on people and ourselves is because we give ourselves in love to something and someone other than Allah. we sell ourselves way short of what worth Allah holds us in. He knows how to love. it's just sad that we forget it. why i say is that we forget it is because by default (by fitrah) we all love Him, but 4 things make us forget it, 3 of which are shaytaan, dunya, nafs. your carnal, lower, mere self can be called nafs in Arabic.
5. reading 3 and 4 together, nothing that this world has to offer is above your self respect. note that self respect is not the same as ego. self respect is looking at your self in the mirror without complaining, walking down the street without worrying that others are looking at you. self respect is above liking someone. it's an amanat from Allah, so i should treat it that way.
6. honesty is beautiful. the constant whining and complaining we do about friends leaving us, backstabbers, dishonest companions, illogical outcomes,betrayals, is because we have not been honest to ourselves, friends and family. not been honest to God, to deen, to Sunnah.
7. toy story is the greatest movie ever. 1 and 3 are awesome, but 2 is super awesome.
8. life becomes better increasingly as one keeps reducing watching tv.
9. reading fiction aint as bad as i thought
10. i can read stuff on politics any time.
11. no matter how strong you are, how dominating a personality you may be, how well your leadership qualities may be, who you spend time with, eat and drink with, sit and walk with. basically your friends and your suhbat affect you like crazy.it will affect your thinking, your outlook, your sense of style, your lifestyle. it wont affect you ofcourse if you are hanging out cuz you are scared of being alone.
12. there's immense importance and need to be alone for some time everyday. it's a pleasure to sit alone everyday, with heart and mind pausing everything else in life and the world.
13. what's not liked by God cannot make you happy in the long run.
14. my heart is still yearning for Makkah and Madinah. the longing is not decreasing alhumduliLLAH
15. my opinion about facebook when i last signed in has not changed uptil now.
16. doing masters is not that bad an idea afterall (just learnt it in the last week of dec 2010)
17. being free is not as attractive after you have had a good night's sleep.
18. i will miss LUMS more than i thought i would. i will miss it because of what studying in its rooms gave me. what eating alone in the pdc made of me. what praying in the masjid built in me. i will miss its library and its people. some teachers, some students changed my life for good.
19. expect less, give more.
20. my respect for Imam Ghazali has increased manifold.
21. my respect and love for Hadhrat Umr has surged manifold.
22. it's very very important to listen to the other person.
23. the whole of bollywood sucks.(this is a near discovery)
24. being lazy is my weakest and worst habit.
25. writing is a great activity.
26. white all the way. i have tried countless themes and designs and backgrounds for this blog, and its the third time i am returning to plain white.. cyprus blue still is my favourite colour, but white might beat it very dangerously soon.=)
27. i love fridays.
more shall come, if i feel like entering them
but yes, 2010 was a lot of fun in the beginning. awesome in rajab and ramadan. very boring and dry, confusing and sad after september till december. great in december. from my gang, one friend got married, another had a baby. but my life remains flat and smooth, yet has been exciting for my soul and spirit. and i am loving it. All thanks to Allah. Love Him
this is outside the library where i have been lost and found most of the time at lums. this pic was taken during the mid terms week (october 2010). there's something beautiful about this mess on the racks. i never lost something from here.=)
when it starts getting cold and you just want to have a warm cozy time sitting outside the academic block on a brick sill, with the masjid minaret clearly in view. at 12 noon, the sun is at your back and it shines on the lums masjid in front of your eyes some 20 yards away. this pic was taken in november 2010
chucky and most likely her little kitten. to be honest i am not sure if chucky is a male or female but i would like her to be a female. i will confirm with someone on college or maybe with chucky and update on its gender asap :) this is outside the superstore.
when the going gets tough: this was taken at the ground floor in the academic block. when people around you annoy you, and you become parasitic on your own self, and when courses and grades are low, you look at this light pouring on the floor from the glass 2 storeys above, and smile.
